The (UN)Mothers Of This Day

I was at the post office dropping off a parcel for a customer & the woman who always rings me up wished me a Happy Mothers day as we finished the transaction.  I was walking away thanking her & quickly turned back around to ask if she herself was a mom, because truthfully you neverContinue reading “The (UN)Mothers Of This Day”

The Wounds Of Adoption

I always felt haunted in my own body by the ghostly feeling of these unresolved bleeding wounds of being given away.  Even as a grown woman,  I still needed & wanted answers that only she had the power to relinquish over me.  What would make a mother want to give their child away was a very big question I had, especially becoming a mother of my own adding more emotions to wounds that would never seem to heal.

I Never Knew How Abused I Was Until I Began To Heal.

I never truly knew how abused I was until I began to heal.  This sacred personal work is prudent & detrimental to me, my husband, my daughter & the future legacy that follows.  I decided that my children deserved a healthier loving legacy than the one I got adopted into, filled with secrets, lies, distorted beliefs & with its own legacy of unhealed trauma that brewed resentment & anger camouflage to come across as love.

The art in healing..

ive cried a lot lately, for so many different reasons I would really need to write a book to convey all its glorious which has been a thought I have played with for a long time now..I just dont seem to want to hold my shit in anymore (this working with crystals is really powerful), breaking apart emotionally almost as a form ofContinue reading “The art in healing..”

Apron Strings | the unabbreviated enthusiasts’s show

Great talk about when to let go of your kids, along with sharing a break through I have had emotionally in my own personally healing journey! — Read on http://www.spreaker.com/user/unabbreviatedenthusiasts/apron-strings

A “bad moms” kinda mother day

I woke up to bouquet of white and pink magical roses yesterday for mothers day with reminiscent photos of when I was a single mom to my oldest daughter on the kitchen island..im going to openly admit that mothers day is a “holiday” I have long struggled with from being raised by a narcissist that actually has beenContinue reading “A “bad moms” kinda mother day”

The Wounds Of Adoption

I always felt haunted in my own body by the ghostly feeling of these unresolved bleeding wounds of being given away.  Even as a grown woman,  I still needed & wanted answers that only she had the power to relinquish over me.  What would make a mother want to give their child away was a very big question I had, especially becoming a mother of my own adding more emotions to wounds that would never seem to heal.

just like its my children’s time to discover who they are outside of me, its also I found out, my time to discover who I am outside of them..

I’ve been busy lately, studying actually to be honest and a tab bit slightly confused in a situational good manner as to the direction im supposed to be going in..not really too confused where it gives me anxiety or fear, but just enough to make me want to ponder and inspire my thoughts enough and really ask myself for the first timeContinue reading “just like its my children’s time to discover who they are outside of me, its also I found out, my time to discover who I am outside of them..”

we are solely responsible for our own happiness

some times, life sets us up some really rocky experiences that coincide with our energetic behavior giving us a full does of what actual chaos looks like, even when we are emotionally unprepared and ill equipped to deal with the repercussions of our internal behavior..our sabotaging tendencies come into full effect when we are emotionally decidingContinue reading “we are solely responsible for our own happiness”

I thought therapy would be my salvation because of what I saw on T.V

    I remember the first time I went to counseling I was mid way through my 27th year, a new mother to an 8 month old daughter, separated from my first husband and trying to readjust back into American life after living out of the country in Israel for over 7 years..i was in massive culture shock, angry, displaced,Continue reading “I thought therapy would be my salvation because of what I saw on T.V”