The Relentless Loop Of Fear

Have you ever had one of those relationships (physically, spiritually, emotionally) with something or someone that you feel you need to hold onto for dear life with in order to maintain its connection.  You cling tightly to this relationship even though you known in the deepest parts of your brain & soul that it’s unhealthyContinue reading “The Relentless Loop Of Fear”

The Unexpected Goodbyes Of Pandemic 2020

A little & A lot has happened over quarantine these last few months, taking my flow of emotions from one place to another without apology or remorse since that’s the way life rolls.   Instead I decided to become more vigilant to find the beauty in this unexpected event knowing that what was before, willContinue reading “The Unexpected Goodbyes Of Pandemic 2020”

just like you I am at times riddled with fear at the actual thought of transformation

    I seriously hate change, really I do regardless of all the paths I have conveniently accepted throughout my entire life purposely and or blindly..you would think by now that I have mastered its skill along with the feeling of being semi under control but just like you I am at times riddled with fear at the actual thought of transformation..it scares the living shit outContinue reading “just like you I am at times riddled with fear at the actual thought of transformation”

the true emptiness of the ego thrives on needing validation and applause for looking like a righteous good person in a spiritual ornament persona, gag me with a spoon and BARF

I had a most personal transformational discovery this year that through virtue by some might have cost me a lot in the beginning, but in my hindsight was worth the gamble I took in order to really find my inner truth..you see, sometimes you have to be willing to roll your dice, show some of your cards enough that people realize you aint fucken aroundContinue reading “the true emptiness of the ego thrives on needing validation and applause for looking like a righteous good person in a spiritual ornament persona, gag me with a spoon and BARF”

I happened to have a birthday the other day, being the face of the ripe age of 47 PROUDLY

some times you are unable to make sense of things that happen in your life and why, spending so much time and energy in a negative contemplation..eventually like always, when the dust begins to settle, you will have the opportunity to see the situation in a much clearer different light offering you clarity and resolution if your able toContinue reading “I happened to have a birthday the other day, being the face of the ripe age of 47 PROUDLY”

I watch poor Ashley I commit to the compulsive behavior of her obsession with rejection.

I was watching the bachelor in paradise last night and something in my head clicked when the light bulb went off about our toxic yet gratifying human behavior..i have explored my emotional life in deep depths and have first hand realized the effects of the compulsive behavior though the effects of rejection as I watch poor AshleyContinue reading “I watch poor Ashley I commit to the compulsive behavior of her obsession with rejection.”

let go of the legendary fear villain to all circumstances that doesn’t even really exist

I went yesterday to my monthly tarot group class/ meet up, something I look forward to doing for me as a tarot enthusiast and one who thoroughly enjoys “playing” cards with other like minded people sharing a common bond in tarot. the beautiful thing about this meet up group is that it consists of all types of people who have been reading theContinue reading “let go of the legendary fear villain to all circumstances that doesn’t even really exist”

I could feel him for the first time in my physical presence

I had waited for this reunion for what felt like a life time.. imagine if you will for a moment, walking into a massive open place, with hundreds of people watching you come out of doors that lead to the place were every body upon every body is waiting and looking for someone..imagine for a moment that your blindedContinue reading “I could feel him for the first time in my physical presence”